I want

I want a great many things. I don't want to be selfish. I've been given so much already. The fact that I live freely, I'm not homeless, I got my college degree, I haven't experienced anything so bad that it's put me in a mental ward, and I have money in the bank is all amazing enough. Why do I want so much more? And why is so hard to make me happy? I want to be good, reliable, and caring. I want to be strong and capable and loyal. I want to be a success. I want to be a faithful disciple, a creative thinker, and a beloved teacher. I want to be a great many things.